True Friendship 4

I pulled Jenna out of the way and stormed into the bathroom. Jenna once again followed,
“What do you mean the feelings came back? You’re not going to consider going back to Karyn are you?”
“What if I am?”
“I thought you loved me.”
“I do. I’m just confused right now.”
“You’ll have to make a decision. Me or Karyn?”
“You can’t just put me on the spot here Jenna! I can’t make this decision until I’ve sorted out my feelings!”
“It’s an easy solution Laura! You love me! You got over Karyn and that leaves you to choosing me.”
“Why?”
“Why what?”
“Why are you acting this way?”
“I’m not acting in any way! I’m just defending and fighting for our relationship.”
“It makes you sound like such an ugly person on the inside. Selfish and careless.”
“I’m sorry if it does but I’m trying to save this relationship. I refuse to give it up and I refuse to go down if I must without a fight.”
“This isn’t a fight Jenna! This is about Karyn’s feelings. This is about considering other’s feelings. This is about what I’m going to do since this situation seems to be revolving around me!”
I showered quickly and went back to my bedroom, Jenna still following and yelling at me.
“Laura! Where are you going?”
It began to pour outside,
“Karyn’s.”
“To do what?”
“To talk things over.”
“Fine.”
“You’re coming with me.”
I said and dragged Jenna down the stairs,
“No I’m not!”
“Yes you are! We’re all going to sit together and have a nice conversation together!”
I was practically screaming, I threw Jenna’s coat at her and shoved her in the car. 
We arrived at Karyn’s within a few minutes, Karyn quietly said hi and without questioning, let us in. I made Jenna sit down in a chair and I sat on the couch with Karyn. Jenna had a look of jealousy and anger burning in her eyes.
“Laura…what are you doing here?”
Karyn asked, scooting away from me as she saw the anger in Jenna’s eyes.
“To talk to you.”
“Well I can see that…but…”
“And Jenna needs to learn how you feel. She obviously doesn’t care very much.”
I shot an impatient look at Jenna,
“I don’t know if this is a good idea Laura…”
I took her hands in mine, Jenna stood with fists clenched,
“Sit, Jenna.”
I said and watched her seat herself quietly down. We talked for nearly four hours, mostly Jenna and I were yelling and screaming at each other while Karyn tried to calm things down.
“If you still have feelings for Karyn then I refuse to be with you.”
That was the last thing Jenna said before storming back out into the rain. I was shocked and Karyn looked just as shocked.
“I told you this wasn’t a good idea. Now Jenna’s gonna leave you and it’s all because of me. I’m sorry Laura.”
“No it’s not your fault! I should be sorry. I…we’ll talk later.”
I rushed out and saw Karyn close the door behind me. I jumped into the car and Jenna sat there with her arms crossed.
“Jenna…”
“Drive us home.”
I felt completely worthless at this moment, but I drove us home attempting to talk to Jenna but was only returned with ignorance.
We were home and Jenna went directly to her room, I could hear her muffled crying. I decided I would go and try to comfort her, after all, or at least I hoped, we were still a couple. I closed the door halfway and found Jenna hidden completely under her covers. Then I knew exactly what this was about. It wasn’t that she’s jealous of Karyn, It wasn’t that she was truly concerned that I still had feelings for Karyn, she was acting selfish for a reason. I realized that Jenna had a really strong exterior, and all she was doing was trying to hide her weaknesses and hide her true feelings. Thinking about it now, Jenna has never cried in front of me before. Not really at least. This time, she was soaking her pillow with tears of pain and loss. I pulled her covers up and slid under them silently, and I felt her arms close around my waist.
“Laura…I’m really sorry.”
Jenna sobbed and held me closer, I ran my hand up and down her back, trying to sooth her feelings. 
“I was just…too scared to show you that I’m not really…strong.”
“I know Jenna…please don’t hide anything from me like this. Something worse might have happened if I didn’t understand.”
Her tears were soaking my t-shirt now,
“Shh…stop crying.”
Jenna looked up at me and our lips met. Her hands on my waist and my arms around her. Then the lights flicked on,
“Laura…”
I heard my father say,
“Shit.”
I said and leapt up,
“Explain yourself.”
I truly believe that my father is a very religious man, whereas my mother follows him. This cannot be good. My mother came from behind,
“What is it Dan?”
“I swear, Laura, if you tell me that you were kissing your friend…”
I didn’t know what else to say,
“I wasn’t?”
I said with a questioning tone,
“Don’t lie. Lying is a sin…and so is homosexualism!”
My mother didn’t speak, Jenna stood up beside me,
“Sit down!”
My father demanded and Jenna obeyed quickly.
“Laura…why didn’t you tell us? I could have you cured in no time!”
“Cured? You can’t cure this type of thing.”
Jenna interrupted,
“You…you were the one who seduced my innocent child into such a sin!”
I shook my head vigorously, my eyes begging for my mother to say something. She looked down in despair, deep down I knew she didn’t think our sexuality was wrong. She only followed my father’s beliefs to save her the arguments with this stubborn lawyer. 
“We’ll have you go to the best pychiatrist there is in the state Laura. We’ll clear your soul.”
My mother said as my father glared at her,
“And as for you Jenna. You’re to move out by nine o’ clock tomorrow morning.”
The two left hurridly to their bedroom to discuss this situation.
“Oh my gosh…”
Jenna began crying again,
“Where am I gonna go?”
“I…I don’t know.”
I said, worried about Jenna and myself. What were my parents discussing? I was going to tell them, I really was, I didn’t want them to find out this way.
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I woke up at six in the morning, disturbed by the sounds coming from Jenna’s room. I went and saw her packing,
“Jenna…stay.”
I murmured,
“I can’t. We both know how your father is, and seeing as how this situation is going against his beliefs…”
I sat beside her and thought things over,
“Karyn’s parents wouldn’t mind…”
Jenna hesitated to respond,
“Karyn?”
I stood and left, Jenna didn’t ask where I was going. I quickly and quietly ran down the stairs and slipped out of the house in my pajama pants and tank and untied sneakers. I took a ladder with me. I reached Karyn’s house after a long while of struggling with carrying a ladder and slipping in the wet grass. I found her window and propped the ladder up and climbed, knocking gently on Karyn’s window.
“Laura…what are you doing?”
Karyn whispered and opened her huge window, I climbed in and fell on my behind.
“Ow.”
Karyn helped me up and onto her bed,
“Well?”
I caught my breath and began talking,
“My parents caught me in bed with Jenna. We were kissing.”
Karyn looked hurt but she was concerned for me, I know she was.
“Oh no…how’d your dad react?”
I felt tears roll down my cheeks, Karyn wiped them away for me. How I missed her touch.
“He’s sending me to a psychiatrist to ‘clear my soul’ and kicking Jenna out of the house. I was hoping…”
Karyn knew what I was going to say. She sighed and nodded,
“I’ll do it for you.”
I was so happy, I hugged her tight and sighed a sigh of relief.
“Thank you so much.”
I knew this hurt Karyn but right now, I needed to let things work out on their own with the two while I was going to be forced into an office with a stranger who thinks he/she can work out my thoughts. 
That morning wasn’t the most peaceful one. All I heard was dad stomping around the house impatiently, waiting for the moment when the clock strikes nine. Still a half an hour to go. Jenna was ready to go, but we sat in her room waiting for the time to pass.
“Did you really consider…breaking up with me?”
I said quietly, barely even audible for myself to hear. Jenna leaned against me and held me by the arm,
“It was just a spur of the moment kind of thing, I would never.”
I sighed, but it was only a few minutes till she leaves.
“Better hope dad doesn’t find out where you’re going…then he’ll like forbid me to go to Karyn’s.”
Jenna nodded and hugged my arm tighter,
“Ow…you’re cutting off my circulation.”
I tried lightening up the mood, 
“Sorry.”
Jenna was way too serious about this, she sighed and picked up her stuff, it was five till.