True Friendship 3

“Are you sure Laura? I really love you and all, but Karyn would be crushed.”
I took a moment to think this over as I parked into Karyn’s driveway, I decided I’d have to tell her sooner or later, why not now?
Jenna got out of the car with me and we both went in with Karyn. Karyn had no objections, she knew what this meant, she knew I wanted to talk about something serious.

\ No…Laura’s here to talk to me. She seems so serious, this has to got be serious. I wish I could tell her that I’m seeing a psychiatrist for my fear of physcial or sexual contact with any person at all but I can’t. I don’t want her to think I’m crazy. But maybe I should…before her feelings change. I’ll tell her now. \

I sat Karyn down and had Jenna beside me, we were in the living room. Karyn knew that I wanted to talk to her, she was quiet and waiting for me to begin.
“Karyn…I just wanted to tell you…well…”
I was having the most terrible time getting it out, but Jenna helped me out. She took my hand and squeezed it, hoping Karyn would realize what was going on so that it’d make it less awkward for me. Karyn looked at me in confusion,
“Wait…you guys…”
Jenna saw that Karyn still didn’t get it. Jenna turned my head so that I was facing her and kissed me briefly just to prove a point. I could see welling up in her eyes,
“I’m so sorry. You’re just so different and I’ve lost most of my love for you because you didn’t even try to make things better. I don’t think this’ll work out babe.”
Karyn was beginning to cry, but she nodded,
“I…understand. It’s all my fault. But Laura you’ve got to believe me I tried!”
I believed her, but I’ve waited so long already and she didn’t even try until it was too late.

“I realize that sweetie…but you’re too late. I’ve waited so long…”
Jenna gripped my hand tighter, feeling bad for Karyn. I walked over and gently patted Karyn on the back, afraid of hugging her, afraid she’ll push me away. Instead, she stood and pulled me in for a hug. I was taken by surprise, as was Jenna. Jenna came over and put her arms around my waist, I hugged Karyn, knowing that this would be the last time we’d ever hug.
“I’ll miss you…and…and I’m happy for you Laura. I’m happy that you’ve…moved on.”
“I’m sure you will too hun…I’ll miss you too.”
I left her house with Jenna trailing me, Jenna wished Karyn best of luck and gave her a kiss on the cheek. Great, I decided to give up Karyn right when she’s recovered…or maybe she’s recovered because of this moment. I don’t know, but Karyn and I are over. It’s me and Jenna now.

\ I can’t believe it. I lost her. But then if this moment hadn’t come…I would still be afraid of contact with other people. Should I be grateful? Should I be mourning? Should I be this depressed? Or should I act happy? Should I move on? Just like my ex girfriend did…or should I give up? And just wait for her. I must try to get over my love. I wish it were that easy. I wish so much…I’ll try and get over her.

I certainly did wish that Karyn would try and work at getting over me, I loved Jenna now and we have a great relationship going. We’re actually going to go on a real first date this weekend, I’m so excited. Every now and then, I’d call Karyn up and ask her to do some things with me as a best friend. We’d shop together and everything but we hardly laughed with each other anymore. I felt so terrible for Karyn and I felt odd, being the one who gave her up. I think I still love her, but I love Jenna so much. Jenna spent so much time with me, we hardly got into any fights and we can share the same bed together and do god knows what every night. This relationship’s convenient and full of love and passion. I couldn’t ask for more…or maybe I could. I missed Karyn. I really miss her, but I really love Jenna. I don’t know what to do. Do I still have feelings for Karyn now that she’s all better? Jenna always makes me re-think it over though whenever we make love. Jenna makes me forget all my worries, she makes me feel great, that’s what a real girlfriend does. Karyn hadn’t done that very well ever since…well ever since. I wish her best of luck to find a new girl as I did. Though she still is my best friend too.

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not the end of the series…there’s more so don’t worry! Karyn finds out something else about herself a couple months later. Jenna and Laura are happily together but are busted by Laura’s parents. Karyn deals with more stress with this ‘problem’ of hers and she’s fighting for Laura back, even though she didn’t want to do that to Jenna. Jenna of course is fighting back and the two become major enemies all over again. Tough situations in life huh?