What Could've Been - Part I

She was only innocent. Like she always was. She cries at every little thing. She’s emotional all the time. You’d think she was on PMS everyday as long as she lives.
“Do I…really hate her so much?”
“I thought you liked her.”
Me too. And the thoughts were so confusing, even if she tried as hard as she could to think, she’d move on only too quickly to another subject. Fuck this shit.

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“I don’t know what her problem is, I didn’t do anything.”
Alexis said, slamming down her books onto her desk. It gave in and swung back and forth weakly before finally stopping at a crooked angle at her seat.
“Wow…you’re bad luck Alex.”
“Gee thanks.”
She made a face before shoving her books into Chelsea who sat all pretty and ready in her seat. She’s so hot…surprise, surprise, the hot girl is straight.
“Today you all should be prepared for your finals. You only need number two pencils and an eraser. Please be patient as I pass out your test papers.”
The professor took his time, passing one sheet out at a time to each and every student.
“Crap…by the time we get our exams we’ll have half an hour left to take it.”
Chelsea smirked, Stop smirking, it’s so hot…
“I um…yeah.”
Alexis stuttered before finally getting the right words. Alexis seemed eager to talk to Chelsea right after the exams…that’s all she ever wanted to do. Ever since that crass bitch Brynn threw her aside like she’s just some other woman. Revenge is only uncontrollable anger…only uncontrollable…anger…

“Hey Chels…remember last summer? When I met you? Oh god that was hilarious!”
Alexis said, her voice muffled as she dug through her closet.
“Yeah…that was so long ago. I can’t believe it’s almost been a year!”
Chelsea yelled back to make sure Alex heard her. She caught the clothes Alex threw at her and folded them neatly into three neat piles.
“You’re such a perfectionist.”
”You’re such a slob, Alex. You should work on your hair too…”
They laughed.
“Yeah well you should work on your…your…”
”Ha! You got nothing!” 
Chelsea pointed and bounced up and down on Alex’s bed. You’re right…you’re so perfect. I wonder if you know. I wonder if you are. Damn it…hey! nice tits…
“What?”
Chelsea asked when Alex stopped in the middle of her room and just stared,
“Nice tits.”
”What?!”
“I uh…nice fits.”
“Oh…what fits?”
Alexis patted her chest gently when she turned around. That’s the last time she let things slip like that.
“The clothes. Too bad I’m throwing them out to get new ones huh? After all, aren’t you the fashion queen?”
Chelsea smiled and cocked her head to one side,
“Oh yeah. You’re lucky to have me!”
I wish. I think I may cry.
“Wait so why’d you bring up last summer?”
Chelsea asked, rearranging the clothes by colors,
“Nothing really. I just kept thinking back how retarded I was!”
They laughed for a good five minutes…just like any normal friends. Yeah…”normal” you could say.
“Just because you couldn’t read my name and said ‘Hi, Chesly! How are you? I’m Alexis!’ doesn’t mean anything…big.”
“Are you calling me illiterate?!”
“No…not at all Alixes…I mean Alexis.”
And they laughed a little while longer. Making Alex look back at what she almost had before. She could only wonder if anything could happen between her and Chelsea. But Brynn…I don’t know what to feel anymore. I just want…I just want to shout.

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Gently placing her hand on her thigh, she sat upon the queen-sized bed. I wonder if this is right…And her lips met with those soft, pink lips of an angel. She’s so beautiful. 
“Shh…”
She whispered into her ear, Alexis shuddered slightly as the air from her mouth escaped and hit her ear so gently. She finally closed her eyes and gave in. It’s actually going to happen…
“What’s wrong?”
“What? Nothing’s wrong…”
Alexis whispered back, her eyes still closed, 
“You’re crying.”
She said as she leaned forward to kiss Alexis again. She gently pushed Alexis on her back and kicked off her skirt that was already halfway down. 
“Tears of joy.”
Alexis said in between breaths. She took hold of her hips in both hands and pulled her down on top of her. She’s so beautiful…I don’t ever want to lose this.

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”But I never had it. Don’t you understand? I never got what I wanted and now she blames me for her misery!” 
The dark, green-eyed brunette yelled. Holly looked at her, taken aback…
“Hey, all I asked you was what your worst past experience was, okay? You needa chill, babe.”
“Don’t tell me to ‘chill’ when you ask about my past. You don’t know how much it hurts. You just don’t.”
“Well maybe you should explain it to me. Huh? Just maybe? Ever thought of that genius idea?”
“Don’t give me your smart ass talk.”
“Don’t give me your bitchiness. Either you tell me what’s going on or we’re off speaking terms.”
“Nothing’s going on.”
“So you’ve been acting funny for three months and nothing’s going on…”
I wish I could tell you. But then you’d just run off, scared like all the others.
“I never had it.”
Holly stared at her dumbfounded and it’s not because she’s a blue-eyed blonde. She twirled her hair nervously,
“Never had what? Sex?”
“Something like that…”
Holly rolled her eyes and let out a silent snort, or at least a snort like gesture with her body.
“Aw…sweetie just because you’re a virgin doesn’t mean you have to get all uptight about it! Not every twenty-three year old is jumping around and throwing their bodies at men!”
“I know. I’m not throwing myself at men…it’s at…”
”It’s what?”
Sometimes I’m glad she has bad hearing…or maybe she’s just kinda dumb. 
“Can you keep a secret?”
“Um yeah…I’m kinda your best friend? You don’t trust me?”
“No, I trust ya, but still…I don’t want you to run away or anything.”
”Run away? I don’t run…I have heels…oh you’re serious…”
Holly quickly looked away from her and giggled nervously.
“Sorry.”
“S’okay. I…I think you’re hot.”
I hope she gets the point…
“Oh really? Everyone does. No I’m just kidding! Only a few tell me…haha!”
She smiled slightly, a bit irritated by Holly’s not so bright self.
“You don’t get it?”
“What? Do you think I’m stupid? Geez, have a little faith in your friends! You want me…and you’re curious! Well? You wanna kiss me, go ahead!”
“I…”
Not now…god! I would but I’m not curious! I know it for a fact.
“Well?”
Holly wiped off her lip-gloss with tissue and smiled at her friend. She situated herself on the bed and leaned forward a little. She sighed and grabbed Holly by the face with both hands,
“I’m not curious. I know.”
Holly sat there for a moment thinking about what she’d just heard. She looked up at her and shrugged, pulling her face away. 
“I’m curious. God! You just can’t let me have my dignity, can ya?”
Holly said with a huge sigh.
“I’m sorry?”
“No. I understand. So what’s this about a past lover?”
”I…never had it.”

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“I don’t care.”
“Yes you do.”
“I don’t want the stupid car!”
“How can you not want this Mitsubishi Spyder?”
The man chased after Alexis with keys dangling in one hand. He grabbed her by the arm and tried to be as gentle as he could.
“Look, lady, I’m being paid to send you a car that’s FREE. I’m not being paid to play tag, if I were, I’d be excited but I’m not. So take the freakin’ keys and I’m leaving whether you want this car or not.”
The man began to leave,
“Who’s it from?”
“Who? Well, I really don’t know. Read the card in it perhaps? Sometimes reading helps…”
Reading…ha that brings back memories…Chesly.
“Chelsea.”
“Psh! I didn’t send you a freakin’ car! Haha if I bought a Spyder…I wouldn’t give it to you! I’d keep it!”
Alex pushed Chelsea to the side playfully. I finally have a car…huh…
“Ya know, you have a new car…and you have best friend…and you have a mall around here…”
Chelsea threw her hip gently at Alex’s as she pretended to look at the sky.
”Whatever could you be talking about Chelsea? I must be too stupid to understand, well, I’m gonna head on back inside to my apartment!”
Chelsea glared at her yet amused by this sudden playfulness. 
“And what’s with Miss I-want-to-be-serious-all-the-time?”
“I do not! I can be un…serious if I wanted to!”
Chelsea did her little smirk again, Shit. I should’ve kissed her before. Alex turned back around and threw the keys at Chelsea. She had snapped them on to her key chain along with her apartment key and of course, Chelsea’s key. She’s obviously excited about that…
“I will always love you…”
“That’s it? That’s all the card says? Hey, Alex! Let’s go investigate!”
Chelsea had already seated herself in the driver’s seat, she stuck the key into the keyhole and was about to ignite the engine,
“Move over. If we’re investigating, I’m driving my car.”
Chelsea pouted her lip and made her puppy dog eyes at Alex, That lip needs to be attended to…
“Nice try.”
Alex pushed Chelsea over and slammed the silver door shut. She situated herself and looked at Chelsea,
“Put your seatbelt on.”
“I don’t wanna. It makes my feel restricted.”
“Haha! You’re right, it does! Put it on.”