One Dark Starry Night *Part Two*

Dear piece of paper,
Its been an entire year since Daren had confessed his love to me. I often wondered during that summer if he was serious. He never did make any sexual attempts towards me other than the times when he was joking. In my dreams and fantasies I often envision him making incredible love to me. Would my dream ever come true? 

I look back now that summer when he confessed to me that he loved me, that night actually. It was a sleepless night for me. The next morning was even worse. It so happened that early that morning my uncle came upstairs and was very displeased to see Daren and I sleeping in the same bed. Of course he made it clear to us that a 18 year old young man and fifteen year old young lady who are not married should not sleep in the same bed.

"But we are cousins!" I shouted back. "What could we possibly do?"
"I dont expect you to do anything. Its just that it is not at all propper for you two to be sleeping in the same bed."
And with that he walked downstairs to give his report to the other family members on what he had witnessed that morning. Daren and I laid there talking.

"I guess they don't trust us Marie."
"So what are we going to do?" I asked.
"I guess I have to keep my distance from you for a while until this blows over."
"Is that necessary? Even if we ignore each other, they still have this fixed picture in their minds that we are close. And I dont think that will ever change."
"I see what you are saying. But we should still keep our distance."

"But Daren I hardly see you during the day as it is. You be out on your summer job all day and its only the nights when we truly get to talk. And now that we can't sleep in the same bed..." I could not finish my statement. I was much to upset. With that we parted. 
For the last remaining week of my vacation we spent ignoring each other. It really hurt me deeply. I could see it hurt him a lot too, to be apart from me. It seemed so unnatural. Finally the night before the morning of my departure, I crept into his bed.

"Hey what are you doing here?" he whisperd.
"I just could not stay away from you on my last night here. Daren I really love a lot. I wish things or circumstances could have been different. Even if we wanted to get married, our family and friends would never agree to it."
"I know. But I often wonder if we were not cousins would I have even met you?"
"Chances are... no."
"So really I am just happy to spend my years knowing you as my cousin. Happy to share a bed with you."
"Me too," I said cuddling next to him. We entwined our legs together and I gently rubbed his chest. "My feelings for you nearly hurt." I said tickling his ear.
"Hurt?"
"Yeah like my heart is burning with love for you."
"I think I know what you mean."

After he said that he rolled me onto my back and placed my arms above my head and looked into my eyes. The room was dark but I could still see his face by the light of the full moon. Gently he lifted my shirt over my head and threw it on the floor beside the bed. Looking lustfully at my breasts he began to timidly touch them. I gasped and he quickly with drew his hand.

"No dont stop," I said as I took his warm hand and placed it back to my breast. He then began to caress them. I closed my eyes as shivers ran down my spine as I was enjoying this new experience. Suddenly his mouth covered my nipple as he began to suck them. I began to moan with pleasure but not to loudly as to alert my other cousins who were sleeping. He contuniued this pleasing act and then suddenly stopped. We looked into each other's eyes.

"You are so beautiful. I never knew that I could bring you such joy. It shows in your eyes."
"Daren please kiss me," I growled. He then kissed me. I felt lost in an unknown world. But I felt found. I felt loved and cherished. I have found true love but only for one night was I to have it then in the morning its gone like the dark starry night. After the kiss was over he retrieved my shirt and helped me to put it on. We kissed again and he spoke.

"I just want you to know something. We will part and go our seperate ways of that I am sure. You will probably go to college soon. Meet a nice guy and then get married. I may do the same, fine a nice girl and get married but there is something you need to know. I will always love you. No one will ever love you as much as I do. My love for you is special its everlasting there is no equal. As much as I would love to continue this thing we have, it cannot go on. This night ends all nights but it will never end my love just you remember that."

" I will. And Daren I love you. No one will ever love you either as much as I love you." We that being said we kissed good night and I crawled into my bed and fell asleep.

Well piece of paper who would have thought that years later I would repeat the same vow with another phrase added. Daren I will always love you. No one will ever love you as much as I love you. And no one will ever hate you as much as I hate you. You know why? Because you helped me to start something we could not finish. A love started that could not be further explored. That night was incredible it was a dream come true and a nightmare unwanted.
Slowly I watched the paper burn making sure it would not haunt me as do the thoughts written on them.