Memoirs of a BBW

I'm a naturally horny girl. I have been since I was young girl. I don't remember what triggered it, but it might have been something to do with my discovery of my dad's dirty magazine stash in my parents closet, while I was snooping around for Christmas presents. I spent a good hour or two peering through the pictures of women pleasuring themselves, posing for the camera, and being pleasured by toys and men. And then I found the thing that really got me hooked. It was a small book, and at first I was nonplussed, not seeing any dirty pictures. Then I began to read. I have had a passion for reading my whole life. When I was kid, I read The Hobbit and the Lord of The Rings trilogy, and understood them almost completely.

As I read about wild stories of men and women casually hooking up, finding new entertainment as a married couple, or becoming cruel and dominating to sate their everlasting thirst for pleasure, I imitated what those women did to themselves in Dad's books. I slipped my fingers into my panties and began to rub my pussy. It took me a while, but I finally figured out that my clit was the sweet spot to be rubbed.

As I read, and got more turned on, I rubbed harder. Almost through an enticing story about a lobbyist being taken behind a collection of cardboard cutouts, with a high risk of being caught, I felt a strange sensation, and squeaked as my pussy spasmed, sending volts of electricity through my body and making me shake.

That was my first orgasm ever, and I knew exactly what it was thanks to the descriptive words on the pages. These authors were fantastic, and it was addicting. I stole the little book, and hid it under my mattress to read when I felt excited. I almost got caught once, and from then on I devised clever ways to hide the book. I often used one of my larger books, and I would hold the smaller book inside it and masturbate. That way, if one of my parents came barging into my room, I could simply pull my hand out of my panties and look innocently up at them.

As I've gotten older, my curiosity has grown. I discovered the internet when I was sixteen, and found all sorts of porn sides, with little clips of people fucking for free. It wasn't until a few years ago that I found this site, and a year or two after that before I became an author here. But these stories are no longer enough. I'm 20 years old, I've never been fucked. Well, not really.

I'm not attractive to most men. I'm what you'd call a big bodied woman. But you know, I'm comfortable with that. I can do a lot of things that averaged sized people can't, so I don't feel a need to change. And no offense, but fuck you if you disagree, I don't care. Two years ago I came to college. And I discovered that men enjoyed watching women get off, via web-cam. So I set mine up, on my new laptop. And at first it wasn't that exciting, since the first guy I exposed myself to had only criticism to share with me. My pussy was hairy, ew. I was too fat, maybe I should diet. I spent too much time playing with my tits.

But I shaved my pussy. I didn't go on a diet, because I didn't want to. And hey, I like my boobs. They're 46C, and I think they're my best feature. Though I've since been told by men, my pussy is delicious and my ass would only improve if their big cock was buried deep in it. I love the praise I get, but I love it more when I know my getting off is getting someone else off.

However, I'm still a virgin. I bought a dildo with what little money I had left from loans last year, but I couldn't bring myself to break my hymen. But, since I did spend $20 on it, I figured I might as well put it to use somehow. So I've taken to practice deepthroating with it. And just recently, I've worked up the courage to try anal with it. Which isn't easy, considering I don't own any lube, so I've been using regular lotion instead. Not quite as effective, but it gets it in, and I enjoy making it thrust in and out, and I slap my ass, which makes my pussy tingle.

I didn't work up the courage to show anyone my dildo until just a week or so ago. And just once. He was a black man named Edward. I showed him my dildo on the web-cam, and he laughed, because it's black too. I began sucking it, and he was impressed. He told me I knew what I was doing. I'm glad, I'd been practicing for a while. I still can't take it into my throat well without gagging hard. But hey, it's a work in progress.

He was getting turned on, and I began playing with my boobs. He asked me to lick them, and I did so eagerly, lifting one up to my lips and licking around my little nipple. When I was done and let it down, the cool air made me moan. He began talking dirty to me, asking me to moan his name, so I did. Then an idea struck me, and I took my lotion and squirted a glob of it into the valley between my tits. I pressed them together and slid them up and down to get the area good and greased up, then I grabbed hold of my dildo. I rubbed it along the lotion slicked skin, and wrapped my tits around it. And I began to fuck my tits. I slid the dildo up and down with one hand, as I held my breasts together with the other. The head of the dildo was lotion free, so I extended my tongue and lowered my head so that I could lick the tip.

He groaned into his mic, and I felt a rush of arousal. I set the dildo aside and proceeded to rub the lotion into my skin, caressing my breasts and pinching my nipples, and just all in all giving him a show. He suggested that I rub my pussy. I stuck two fingers partially into my hole and held them up to my cam, pulling them apart to show the thick juices that had already pooled beneath me. He cursed and his breathing quickened. I tilted the screen and leaned back, spreading my legs and showing him my pussy. He began to murmur what he would do to me. I took hold of the dildo and rubbed it up and down my slit. I slapped it against my pussy and moaned. It felt good, and it was something I hadn't done before.

He told me to stick it into my hole. I told him no, and he remembered why. He grunted and told me to put it in as far as was comfortable, before it start to hurt. At first it hurt just putting pressure on the hole; he told me I had to have a tight pussy for that to be a problem. I began pushing at it in small jerks, and slowly more of it went into my hole. I only got about two inches in before I had to stop. It had reached the barrier and I'd be damned if I were to let it break it. I wasn't ready for that kind of pain, especially since I was in control, and I know myself well enough to be sure I wouldn't be thorough. I began sliding those two inches in and out though, slowly, and it felt good. I started whimpering, and his voice grew hoarse.

I kept at this for five or ten minutes before he gruffly told me to go faster and harder for him. I complied eagerly, the dildo making sloshing noises as it went in and out. I always kept it just far enough out that I wouldn't hit that wall and give myself a twinge of pain, but occasionally as I went faster and faster I bumped against it, but the pain only added to my pleasure. I came hard and suddenly, and I spasmed for at least five minutes. Once I had calmed down and sat up, he thanked me. I pouted and told him I hadn't even gotten to use it in my ass.

He laughed and told me we could save that for later. I frowned and told him that I wasn't done playing, just because he had cum. He seemed surprised, but I told him that I was a nympho if ever there was one. That made him hard again, and I turned my back to the cam, warning him that I wasn't flexible enough to see what he was typing. He said that it was okay, and he would be content to just watch. So I put some lotion on my fingers, and began to loosen my ass. I started with one finger, and quickly added another. I pushed in and out for a few minutes, loosening it up. I added a third and twisted my fingers around, trying to keep my hole stretched a bit as I lubed the dildo up. I tried pushing it into my dark hole, but it wasn't ready yet. So I greased it up some more, and finger fucked myself for a few minutes longer.

I tried again, and this time it slid in easily. The veiny surface rubbed against the ring of my anus, and I groaned into my pillow and let the dildo sit in my ass. However, my ass didn't appreciate something forced up it, and started pushing it out. I whimpered at the sensation and reached behind me to begin thrusting it slowly in and out. I loved the sensation, and pulled lightly at my tits to keep myself hot. I stayed like this for at least fifteen minutes, one hand working the dildo in and out of my ass for Edward to see, and my other hand playing with my nipples, which he couldn't see. Eventually I repositioned myself and sat on the dildo, which turned me on. Edward was even more turned on, as he began to instruct me on how to move. He loved me sitting on it, and told me to rub my clit and bounce up and down.

I did so with zeal, the dildo sliding in and out of my ass a bit as I bounced, which made my tits bounce, which felt great as I rubbed my clit. All this stimulation was more than I had ever felt before, and I came fast and hard. He instructed me to keep moving, to hold my orgasm. I forced myself to keep bouncing, even though all my body wanted was to dissolve into a quivering mass of ecstasy. I somehow managed to prolong my orgasm for ten minutes, which was not only the longest I have ever cum, but the hardest as well.

I couldn't do it again that night, and I had to bid my cyber lover a good night as I let the rubbery cock slide out of my ass and wiped my quivering pussy down with a moist cloth to contain the mess. I have to lose my virginity some time soon. If I came this hard with a dildo just up my ass, I can only imagine how amazing it will feel with a cock in my pussy. Who knows, maybe my first lover will fuck me from behind and keep his cock in my pussy and move the dildo in my ass? A girl will dream. I most certainly will.