Found out about my wife cheating

My wife (Rachel) left one evening to go out with her girlfriends. I was home alone for a few hours, I went upstairs to wash up. As I Was looking for some soap, in the back of the cupboard was a journal book. I picked it up - it was my wife's joournal from when she was in high school all the way to today.

I started to read it, it talked about the first time having sex with her boyfriend when she was 18. It talked about the first time we had sex when we were 19. It then went on a few years (We were going steady), and it talked about a man named Stephan who was her teacher in college. It talked about her going to his house and having a long dinner, and how he unbuttoned her blouse and felt her breasts (She was a 36C-23-33). She described very graphically that she unzipped his pants and started to suck his large uncut cock. They then moved to his bedroom, where he climbed on top of her and fucked her missionary she described how good it felt in comparison to me. I was getting hard as I read this journal. She described how she had her first g-spot orgasm. He then pulled his cock out of her pussy and spewed a huge load all over her tits, with roaps of cum hitting her face. She described how she the licked his cock, and how she and him french kissed with his hot cum still on her face.

As I continued to read, she would described how she missed fucking Stephan. About a year later she had another log entry of her going back to his house to drop of some documents. That they started to kiss. They went back to his bedroom, where they undressed. She describes how she sucked his cock while he licked her pussy, and how wet she was. She then rode his cock very fast. She then describes her pulling his cock out of her pussy and jerking it off all over her face. Again she describes how great it felt to have a man cum so much and then kiss his own cum from her lips, that he was so sexually aware. I was not sure if I should be mad or horny.

I continued to read, and she continued to fill her journal with how badly she wanted to fuck him. About a year later she has another journal entry. At this time we were engaged. She again goes to his house, and this time she said she gets aggresive with him, taking his clothes off and telling him to suck het tits as she stroked his cock. She then jumped on his cock, she described how huge he felt. She then came of his cock and jerked him off until he came all over her tits.

It was now a few hours later, and my wife came home. I immediatly grabbed her and started to strip her clothes off and put my cock in her pussy. I was thrusting very hard as she started to cum. We often talk dirty when we fuck, and I asked her if she had ever fucked another man, she said she had, that she fucked a man named Stephan.I asked her what he did to her, and she said that he fucked her hard and his cum was huge, and he came on her face. As she told me this, I pulled out my cock and jerked off my cum shot onto her face and then proceeded to kiss my own cum from her face.

After that session I told her that I read her Journal, I told her that I was not sure what to feel, but that it did make me horny that she had been fucked by another man.......