Dominated by a live cam girl : Part 1

It was noon, and my parents were away at a birthday.
I was in the computer room downstairs; I was supposed to rearrange my room now that it was repainted and my new dresser had arrived and needed to be put together, but I decided to masturbate instead, so I started looking at porn in the internet.

I don't have much free time. I am at the university most of the week studying and I only come home in some weekends.

Of course now everything is different. Actually, I'm not so sure about anything right now

As I started telling, it's all started two months ago while I was browsing the internet threw the live webcams section. It's quite a growing industry this thing; girls that give you private shows threw their webcams. And they charge you for about 1 euro per minute, which actually adds up to the price of going to a real escort.
It sounds weird I know, why would anyone want to pay so much for that when they can go to a real escort at the same price?
Well, I know I wanted to, and I was willing to pay a lot more.
To explain what I just said, I have to go way back in my story,
which actually begins when I was a child, or a teenager shell I say.

I was always pretty much ok plus looking, very smart and good in school, and also in a good place socially; I mean I wasn't the coolest kid in class but I definitely hung around with the "cool kids", and in short I was pretty much a normal teenager.

Or so it seemed.

Despite all that I said, I always had trouble making connections with girls. When I was young it was less severe, I mean I had some female friends, and even a girlfriend for a short time.
Oh that was a good time.
Ever since I was about 18 I didn't have any real connection to girls, not as friends, and even more not as girlfriends.
It didn't seem that way on the outside, I mean I was around girls when I hung out with my friends and they knew who I was, and if you had asked people who knew me how I was socially and stuff they would have told you that everything was ok and I was doing fine; but you could not have found one girl that would count me as a friend of hers.

I didn't know why this was happening at the time, I mean I had every characteristic and even more to make such connections, and much geekier and weirder kids had relations with girls; but I didn't.

I was always very shy around girls, I could be very dominant at an "only men environment", but if a girl was present I was always very quiet and carful.
If I had had to be alone with a girl then I would get really nervous and try to end the conversation and walk away as soon as I could.

At that time I started to find out that I find girls very attractive. I mean more then normal men do.
Girls that were considered good looking were like goddesses to me. I admired them, and the idea of touching and being with them was like a dream to me. I wasn't attracted to girls that looked really bad, I mean really fat, ugly, you name it. But girls that were ok minus looking, those that did not have boyfriends and weren't so popular, could make me tense, and could make me really horny when I thought of them.
I wanted like hell to be with so many such girls, and I knew I was capable of it, but I was shy, too shy, and scared, I thought they were perfect, and that I didn't deserve them, and I was also scared of what people would say about me if I went out with them.

Anyway, I spent a lot of time fantasizing; and being alone.

When I started studying at the university, it was already a reality to me.
I adored women.
Every female student I saw, every woman I saw on the street, in the bus, anywhere – I drooled.
I didn't know if it was a blessing or a curse. I was dying to be with a woman, to touch a woman, any woman. I fantasized about it, and I had tons of pleasure just looking at woman. But I couldn't do anything real about it; I felt that I just couldn't handle any real interaction with women.

Did I mention I had been watching porn? I had, a lot, from the age of about 13.
In my house there always was, and still is, only one computer, which was in a room downstairs (my room is upstairs, I live in a small private house with two floors). With my parents and older brother living in the house, the environment was not so comfortable for watching porn. But I did watch porn, and masturbated, in that room, A LOT. I did it on average for like four hours a day. In day time when people were in the house I just closed the door and listened, when I heard someone coming I quickly closed the porn and stopped masturbating, and I spent hours like that in that room. Of course accidents happen, I wonder if my parents knew what was going on and on what scale; it almost seems unfounded that they didn't.
In night it was much more fun, I could be loosened, turn the volume up, and I enjoyed much more.
At the university I did not have my own computer, so at weekends this kept going on.

I watched everything, and it was great. The more perverted the better. Facials, violence, spitting, humiliation, the girls were so beautiful and sexy, I often wonder how could such good looking women agree to do these crazy stuff and be treated like trash, I would happily marry and worship any of them.
Obviously I was most attracted to female domination, it was amazing, and I loved those videos. In time it gotten better and better, sites came up of real women searching for internet "money slaves" just to take advantage of and take their money. The very idea of it made me extremely horny; I wanted that. I wanted a woman to take advantage of me, to do what she wants with me, to humiliate me.

I am 21 years old, I am supposed to finish my degree in a mount, and I already have a job, well sort of, lets say I have a source of income, and I won't get any deeper into that.
When I was 14 I French kissed a girl, that’s the most far I have ever gone.

So far I have told you nothing that’s sounds like a sex story, well here it comes.

I was browsing threw the online cam girls, I bought time of 50 minutes two weeks ago and used 20 of them so far. It was great, having such interaction with such beautiful women was out of this world, and I was not uncomfortable at all, since it was only on camera. I got so much attention from these women, they reacted to what I told them, and I even showed my self on camera and they said I looked good, the experience was amazing, I waited for it, and I saved and treasured this time.